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Jul. 4th, 2010

J&W concerned

Your Captain vs the apple

How bad does a cut need to be before you call someone to take you to the emergency room??

I don't know... and I live alone now...

cutting up an apple, apple resists.
dropped twice on floor and in the sink numerous times.
making last cut, knife slipped, sliced into my finger.
That shit hurt.

finger in mouth, the taste of blood everywhere.
finger under running water, red swirling down drain.
finger tightly clutched in napkin, blood seeping through.
Sending clotting thoughts at finger... bleeding stops.
band-aid applied...

Still hungry, walk back to apple.
BLOOD on apple... wash apple, eat apple.

Captain - 1 Apple - X0
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Jun. 2nd, 2010

Open Wide

hungry...

There is like... nothing to eat here...


So, my radiator has a crack in it...
I'm not going to have a roommate when I move out...
I'm not making 40 hours at work...
I have to get a second job...
I can't do that until my car is fixed...
I can't move out until I have a second job...
I'm not allowed to go shopping until I've gone back to school(self imposed)...
I need to take Petey to the vet...
I need to take myself to the vet...
I'm more addicted to coffee than ever...
When asked where I'll be in ten years, I realized that I will have just graduated with or still be working on my doctorate...
Reading Pashte's book blog is making me really want to read more(something I don't actually have time to do)...
I really need to take a shower...
I don't know what I want to do in a general, 'hey, this is my life' sort of way...
I haven't knitted all week...
I haven't bought yarn all month... (err... May, not June)
I need a new computer...



You know what, though?!?! I'm in a great mood today!! I think I'll swim, shower, then read 'til my ride gets here!!
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May. 18th, 2010

LJK - headphones

I, hdcaptain, am a shopaholic

The first step is admitting defeat that you have a problem

Ok, so what's next??

I think a big part of my problem is that since I'm not budgeting for anything, I'm not budgeting for... anything. If that makes sense. I know what I need to do. Take out the amount of cash I'm allowed to spend and stop using my card for everything. Stupid plastic!! It looks nothing like real money! Plus, my math is so bad that I can't keep accurate count of what I have spent! I was discussing it with my Capricorn, who was an accountant in the Philippines, and he's telling me not to worry to much. To just start from here and live differently, that my shopping is because I'm not happy and that if I recognize that fact it will be easier for me to control my spending. That I just need a little self-control...basically he exploded me with a truth-bomb. Insightful, much?? Also , I keep being a little late to work. So I'll post again when I get home!! Also I just got soy sauce fingerprints all over my Mom's keyboard... sorry!
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May. 3rd, 2010

Jun - hdcaptain tenjostyle

I've been up since when!?!?

9:30am... I woke up on my own. Of course I fell asleep last night at 12 so that's actually a lot more sleep than I usually get. I took a nice bath and now I'm swatching for Kuri's gloves. Of course I can't use a pattern, no, I was looking around and though: I like the structure of those... ohhh! Nice chart baby!... That would look smashing on the cuff... *looks around room* this yarn is pretty!!. So now I'm having to swatch for a zombie glove... theoretically though, these should be the coolest gloves ever. Though the gloves I have percolating in my mind for Shika might be the cutest gloves ever... we'll see.
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Apr. 13th, 2010

J&W concerned

1st break

So I've decided I really want to get a papillion puppy now rather than later, and of course I want something really specific. I didn't realize it was going to be so hard to find a breeder who updates their site regularly or answers emails... I thought the point of breeding dogs was to sell puppies. I even decided that I want a dog to show, which I think should be easier to find than a pet quality puppy. But no, every site I've looked at has just said that they don't breed often... that's really no help. So then I started to look for any Texas clubs... there don't seem to be any. There is a toy club in SA but I dont know if there are any paps there. I think I'm just going to go to the next AKC show and try to talk to someone ftf. Shouldn't it be easier to get a puppy????

Apr. 9th, 2010

Open Wide

lucky

tonight
at the bottom of the sea
i found two swedish fish
waiting for me



yum ^o^

Apr. 6th, 2010

LJK - headphones

on break

Not feeling very genki today. Minna-san send me your extra energies. Crackers and tea for snack. 7 hours to go...
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Apr. 1st, 2010

MC Yoo

Is mostly happy!

So I just got home from my fist day of work. I'm really tired because, though she totally knew that my shift was 3pm to 12am, the lady who pays me made me come in at 8:30am to do paperwork and take some really boring video classes... 8:30AM!!! So I've been up since 7am and now it's... 12:30am so that is... math, math, math, carry the math... 17 1/2 hours!! If my math is right. I know it's going to take me a couple of hours to unwind, I have to take Petey out and take a shower (it's a sweaty job, it's really hot in the warehouse even after the sun goes down, gross) and eat something, and watch another episode of All Creatures Great and Small... and decide what clothes I don't mind wearing to work tomorrow... I really need new shoes, the one's I have now are wicked painful, and I was sitting most of today. I shudder to think what my feet will feel like tomorrow after I've worked the full 8hrs. I am one of only two girls on my shift. And only one of the guys has English as his first language... but they all seem really nice. And once they realized that I was actually going to help and not just sit at the computer in the corner like the other girl, they seemed to warm up to me. I can even come home for lunch if I want. I timed it on the way home tonight, from the front door of the building to the front door of my house took 5 minuets... did you read that??? 5min!!! that is soooooo close! If I wasn't coming home so late all by myself through the warehouse/car repair district I'd buy a bike and bike to work. However, as much as I love the earth, I also love myself. Yeah.

This was not actually the reason I got on to post... but I really don't remember...
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Mar. 17th, 2010

LJK - headphones

Oh, HAPPY DAY

SHE'S BAAAAAACKKKK! So dirty she got a welcome home bath!! Hahah!! I'm shaking!!

Mar. 15th, 2010

J&W concerned

Shittiest 32 hours of my life...

So the big one first. Bell got out yesterday.... I can't find her and she hasn't come home. And now it's raining. Everyone send her your good thoughts. Please.

My car repairs are going to cost $850... and my brothers van just broke down... again.

So the new, not-so-happy-birthday plans are. Everyone is still invited to come up, in fact please still come up. However, there won't be any food, there already isn't any food... I'll make a big pot of rice and you can choose between furikake seasonings. How fun does that sound... So bring something if you want to eat it. (err... if anyone decides to take pity on my poor, cakeless, party, please remember. CARROT not Chocolate! Actually, anything other than choco. There is nothing worse than being the only one at your party who doesn't like the cake, trust me.)

I haven't slept since I woke up yesterday so I'll probably be able to make a more optimistic plan if i ever wake up. That is, if I can manage to fall asleep. I keep twitching at every little noise and whipping around every time I see something out of the corner of my eye (which is a lot... I mean a lot, who here thinks I'm crazy?? I know my hand is raised at this point) thinking it's Bell... My poor baby. please come home.


DISCLAIMER: I blame my (probable) excessive use of commas and ...'s on that extra pot of coffee. Everything else can be blamed on the lack of sleep.
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